Again. Let me say this STRAIGHT

READ AT YOUR FRIGGIN OWN RISK

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Don't say I didn't warn you.

Because of a freakin' small reason, I'm turning into emo mode, and I'm so sorry about that really. -.-"

Minjoo sent me a link, with a video of KARA’s Han Seungyeon, dancing to So Nyuh Shi Dae’s Girls Generation. Knowing SNSD fans wishing how they wanted Seungyeon and Sunghee to be in SNSD hurts me a lot.

KARA, is like the perfect group I ever heard in performing, now that they lost their Lead Vocalist, for them; who aren’t really big fans, wishing those things to happen hurts me a lot.

It made me think, would be life be freaking normal and less emo if I never gotten into them? Would Minjoo be having to be freakin confused if I hadn’t been influenced by her?

I got into KARA because of their attitude, and music. They’re so awesome when they perform on stage. Let’s say SNSD has a lot more charisma and sex appeal, but I freakin go for Stage Presence, and Vocals during a live performance,

That’s why I’m with KARA right now. I’m like this aside from the reason that, my period came today. No, not at all. I would still feel this way, if ever.

KARA’s comeback is anticipated by Mid-May, with the two new members they are recruiting using UC Sing.

Auditions will end at May 5^th, and new members would be introduced on May 9^th, I’m kinda excited and hyped up with this.

But the reason with Sunghee without there, is so sad. KARA is an awesome group. And I had premonitions that they would do good this year. And be a somewhat successful. Sunghee will be returning next year, and they’ll go BOOM!

My premonitions are usually correct. I’m not boasting or anything. But who knows anyway? I’m still so darn sad.

It’s like;

Sunghee – Will bring power and energy

Gyuri – passing it around with her motherly figure and kind, soothing voice,

Nicole – rapping and re-telling as if, it was a great big novel.

Seungyeon – ending it with a soothing, and loving voice.

Is how KARA is, they bring so much Harmony to once life. Anyway,

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My friend Shanine just IM-ed me, saying, our friend Lhang is mad, and totally gagged.

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There was this story that Kathy, was mad at her, which I don’t know why and how this got to her. I don’t care at all.

I’m so Mentally disturbed, my emotions are hurt, and so is my heart.

And she’s freaking mad at us all. So senseless I may say, back stabbing and all the things cannot be helped.

And I’m so FREAKING PISSED OFF ALREADY ON HOW I GET COUNSELED ON TO MAKE US ALL GO TOGETHER AGAIN!

I’M SO FREAKIN’ DARN PISSED WITH ALL OF THIS! WHY CAN’T THEY JUST BE SO UNDERSTANDING?! AND GET THIS ALL OVER WITHOUT ANYONE GETTING MAD AT ALL?!

THE TRUTH ALWAYS DARN HURTS, BUT WHY CAN’T WE HELP BUT FIGHT ALL THE TIME?!

IF YOU FREAKIN GUYS WANTED TO FIGHT, THEN DO SO! DON’T EVER GET INNOCENT, AND QUIET PEOPLE INTO IT.

SOMEONE TOLD US THIS, AND WE’RE FREAKING LISTENING TO THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE DARN DISTURBED AND SAD,

AND NOW YOU FREAKING ACCUSE US OF MAKING YOU LOOK DARN STUPID?!

You’re not the only person feeling that way in this world, don’t ever think that the world will end without you.

A lot of people in this world, are being deceived more than, how your lovely friends had deceived you, you were deceived for a great big reason.

Being plastic is a effing part of life, and no one can’t help but do that, in order not to bring up so much freaking fights at all.

And you can’t even freakin’ understand it?!

Your life might be sad and all, but you’re not freaking the saddest person in this world!! Don’t sick for darn attention, we all have equal amount of it.

I heard you were being treated badly at your house, and I want to help you out and make you out of this. And now, I’m in a mentally unstable condition, this is the FREAKING NEWS I DARN GET?!

The hell with all this!

THE HELL WITH YOU,

THE HELL WITH US!

THE HELL REALLY!

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And with that, I’m still not freaking getting at the peak of my endless rant, and I want top cry.

I’m badly and drastically hurt, and my mind’s so freaking confused. I wanna stab everyone and go die. -.-“

This life freakin… is so filled with bad luck.

In the middle of recovering from my skin sickness, my PC suddenly gets a Trojan virus, I had to reformat on a jiff, unable to save some of my freakin files, and with that, comes the problem and thought of my skin sickness coming back after the treatment had ended.

I thought everything will be good now, since I’ve had very bad luck since the beginning of THIS SUMMER! And now this?!

TO HELL WITH US ALL!

I want this endless bad luck to end… did I just draw a “very bad luck” fortune in a somewhere shrine?

Why do I have bad luck these days? Was it because I’ve been lucky the whole year last year? So I’ll be bad lucked all of 2008’s year?

I had good luck’s too, but all these bad luck is getting to me, and I’m becoming a little depressed, confused and stressed with all this.

Give me a break..

Let me rest…