Well I'm so sorry for being stupid.

I made a mistake. Fine. I admit it. It's mine. But giving you the cold shoulder, the rant, and the silent treatment. It all adds up to everything. sadness.anger.sadness. Triangular Scale, T-Square. Whatever.

Well, this afternoon we were given C.A.T. Requirements. The Whatever training 4th year students undergo.

Well so I went out to buy them in town. I'm with 2 friends. And we're searching for a garrison belt with a gold buckle. We managed to find 2. So I let them have it. Cause they don't know how to do push-ups, if ever we're punished for not having complete requirements. Wahahah. While I know how to. But Too bad, my right arm hurts, my shoulder hurts, my chest hurts, my legs hurts. Good luck my body. I'm so sorry for pushing you so hard. I shall give you lotsa rest on the following days, at least after our very tiring P.E. with the tiring Exercise and etc.. and dance.

So, our semi-maid, went, but I wasn't there so she went home. I even had a good news for my parents. Because among all of the 224 Graduating Students I ranked 65.5th. Yay Me.

So when my Mother came home. She's mad, and is angered making her way to the kitchen to cook and kept on saying.

"If you didn't go out, there would been food here already, all your dad and I can do is to just eat, and with that the Dogs are already fed."

I said, "Well I had to, and I'm sorry I forgot to cook rice,"

Well all I want to say was, "I used my money for it, good thing I had some, so can you give them back?" Oh well. I'm not gonna ask it back anymore. *sigh* I asked her to buy me the garrison belt with a gold buckle. But she didn't oh wells.

and then she repeated.

"Even if we're already eating here when we get home, I had to cook, even if the dogs are already fed, I still have to feed them,"

I wanna shout, "If you want to blame, then just freaking tell me!"

The idea of abusing my body, (the reason my brother died, :P Just making you feel so sad) and doing push-ups just for a single belt, made me want to cry. But I held them back, so my friends won't feel so guilty as to having the last 2 gold buckles. =D I'm so kind noh? Sorry for boasting it's not my nature.

I still have inferiority Complex 60%, so I'm still not joining the Cheering Competition. Just something Random.

I guess, the worst thing that can happen in your life is to just keep every good news in a yourself, and bear the bad news, the cold shoulder, and the silent treatment all in all until tomorrow morning, the next day, until you can't bear it and ask for money.

Forget about submitting my application form to the school now. Forget it. damn it. (i'm sorry God) I'm not applying for the University of the Philippines. As if I'd pass. Yeah Right. =)

So I want to cry right now.. lalala~ de arimasu

F-you. Don't call me an Emo. People go emotional, and sentimental, doesn't mean they're emos. F-you. whoever you are who's saying "emo.." "so emo... ew," over there. die.

Shana-tan.