And now, I told you, April is my bad luck

And now, well yeah, Today's April's last day. I have said something about random chest pains. And I turn out almost having 'GERD'. Gerd can be serious if left untaken care of. Good thing I decided to ask for a check-up to day.

But with that, I had a lot of restrictions in food and drinks.

My restrictions:
Tea
Iced Tea
Softdrinks/Soda
Coffee
Milk
Beef
Hamburgers
Chocolates
Candies
Junk Foods
Pineapple
Banana
Mangoes

and a lot more >.>

I can only eat; water, flakes, healthy fruits, watery fruits, rice, fish and chicken.

Well go me! At least it can be prevented now. And that's what I'm happy about. I can sleep full hours, and go online a lot of hours now without something to worry about.

I really had a lot of bad luck. This might also be God's way of telling me, I'm dieting the wrong way, and is now correcting my habits.

The doctor said, this may never be cured, BUT! Yes, there's a BUT. If I adjust my eating habits, and modify my eating time. I can get cured. I mean like, w00t! freedom with food. And I decided to go with that.

I'll be updating you guys, with my condition, uhahaha!! G0 me!! Face tomorrows without regrets, and go me!

I'll be going to Thailand, MAYBE today, or Tomorrow evening, but All I can say is, I won't be online later this night, and tomorrow. =D Well I do hope our flight is tomorrow, so I could have my braces by then. =D

I hope, my bad lucks go away with the end of April. And I really do hope.

God guide me :D

~ De arimasu.

Shana-nee

I Don't know now

Well, bad luck has been going away for a while? But now I've had stomach complications. >.> I don't know exactly what's wrong, maybe because I haven't been eating on time lately, I should restore my normal eating time soon. XDDDD

Anyway, We'll be going to Thailand this May 1 - 7, wait for some awesome-ness pics by te 9th! Cause by the 8th I'll be resting. Uhahaha!! So yeah guys.

Wait for my comeback ~de arimasu.

P.S. This is my most positive entry, all throughout April, amen.

Lord may guide us to the right way. =D

Bad luck is moving away?

My last entry was as of Sunday? or Monday? not sure. But today, not until I plugged my DS' USB did I know that my DC had the same Virus my PC caught last Saturday. But my Cellphone USB didn't. Isn't that cool?

My Cellphone was on the PC around 20 minutes ago. While I didn't see it appear. Looks like the USB port in-front has a virus, at the back doesn't. If that's the case I'll be LOLing at that.

But, what if my external hard drive had this virus as well? :-S That'd be.

AHGSBDAURBEIKJA OMG! OMG! NOOOOOO!!! NOOO!!

my 80gig External Hard drive didn't have any part of it backed up. And that'll be like total. T.T I'll try it out tomorrow if my teacher can go here. :D I hope he can come by tomorrow. :D

Well it's not very much lethal.

Well, as my entry says, bad luck is moving away? I can't be so sure yet, I have to be ready for the worst shouldn't I? I just think they were settling down to get me off guard.

NO uh, I won't, I won't let myself be off guard. My heart and mind should be ready to face problems, and bad lucks.

God, please give me all the strength. =D Go me!! Let it be!

~ De arimasu.

Bad luck REALLY Won't stay away from me.

I've been having bad lucks, and now, my PC caught a zapchast trojan, for some unknown reason, I didn't go to any suspicious files, and I never knew letting a "zipped" file, "zipped" over night, will do me more anxieties.

My skin sickness has multiplied, I hope they would just get cured in a jiff. Lord my dear, I know I've been a bad kid, as a beginning for a new year. But Please, don't let me fall apart.

I want to do a lot of things this year, and right now, Bad luck is coming after me.

NO! I'm NOT giving up! It's just that, the constant bad lucks are somewhat pulling me down. During the previous problem. *points below* I gave up on it, cause I realized that the situation is really wrong, and it's not the time, yet. I understand now.

But please, I really want to know the reason why, bad lucks are after me. If April ended. Will my bad luck chain end too?

No no, as I said, I'm NOT giving up, living and FIGHTING! I'm just curious and a bit hurt. I know, there are times I turned my back at you. But, all I know is, when I'm alone, you're the only one there for me right?

So please, :)

Anyway, sorry for my random rambling, it might be pointless for you, but it's a great big deal for me, for this to be read by you. Anyway, I'm all better now.

w00t! all hail! w00t!

I still have to copy my files, gehehehe, My computer's getting crowded again. =D

And bad days just won't go away.

I met axel-nii from Crunchyroll, and he's a kind and sincere guy. I could definitely say that he's a good guy. Since he went out of his way to PM me and tell me he's interested in my stories who suck.

Because he was looking for a storywriter/script writer. And his chances didn't fail, he found me. I was glad that someone appreciates my works, and my talent for writing.

He informed me of a band too. A jpop/jrock band. He's looking for band members. So I volunteered to be a vocalist. The practice meeting place is in Makati. Kinda far from Muntinlupa, but who cares?

I asked my dad, and it turns out, he doesn't allow me to. So sad no? Well I guess I'd go for the .1% of going for it, when my mom comes home from Cagayan.

It's like; time is finding ways in stopping me into performing in-front of people. Maybe it's also for the purpose of, avoiding into breaking their eardrums. Because of my nasal, monotonous voice. I suck.

First year high school - I wanted to join the singing contest, but right at the last day of the auditions were I finally had the karaoke for the song I wanted to sing; I got a sore throat. A bad one, that my voice is totally corrupted. And it went on until the day of the contest.

Second Year high school - I got sick due to dyspepsia and wasn't able to audition.

Third year High school - I didn't even know that it was due that time. The auditions I mean.

and now this;

Nothing's been happening to my life, but only purely bad omens. My Skin sickness, my friend conflicts, my mentality, my KARA fandom, and my feelings. Everything is coming down.

My days of happiness and carefree-ness died down. What will happen to my life? I felt like, my world is going to crumble down, and BOOM! I'm out of this world.

I've been thinking "What if the world ends?" lately. Cause of my problems, but it hits me. "it's MY problem," so I was like "why am I thinking about the world?" how dumb of I.

and now my brother said No. So my chance of participating is .001% now.

so yeah, I was ranting. And right now, it should be okay, but I feel so bad.

I guess it isn't time then.

And by the way;

by the time you finished reading this. I'm crying buckets.

See ya.

Again. Let me say this STRAIGHT

READ AT YOUR FRIGGIN OWN RISK

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Don't say I didn't warn you.

Because of a freakin' small reason, I'm turning into emo mode, and I'm so sorry about that really. -.-"

Minjoo sent me a link, with a video of KARA’s Han Seungyeon, dancing to So Nyuh Shi Dae’s Girls Generation. Knowing SNSD fans wishing how they wanted Seungyeon and Sunghee to be in SNSD hurts me a lot.

KARA, is like the perfect group I ever heard in performing, now that they lost their Lead Vocalist, for them; who aren’t really big fans, wishing those things to happen hurts me a lot.

It made me think, would be life be freaking normal and less emo if I never gotten into them? Would Minjoo be having to be freakin confused if I hadn’t been influenced by her?

I got into KARA because of their attitude, and music. They’re so awesome when they perform on stage. Let’s say SNSD has a lot more charisma and sex appeal, but I freakin go for Stage Presence, and Vocals during a live performance,

That’s why I’m with KARA right now. I’m like this aside from the reason that, my period came today. No, not at all. I would still feel this way, if ever.

KARA’s comeback is anticipated by Mid-May, with the two new members they are recruiting using UC Sing.

Auditions will end at May 5^th, and new members would be introduced on May 9^th, I’m kinda excited and hyped up with this.

But the reason with Sunghee without there, is so sad. KARA is an awesome group. And I had premonitions that they would do good this year. And be a somewhat successful. Sunghee will be returning next year, and they’ll go BOOM!

My premonitions are usually correct. I’m not boasting or anything. But who knows anyway? I’m still so darn sad.

It’s like;

Sunghee – Will bring power and energy

Gyuri – passing it around with her motherly figure and kind, soothing voice,

Nicole – rapping and re-telling as if, it was a great big novel.

Seungyeon – ending it with a soothing, and loving voice.

Is how KARA is, they bring so much Harmony to once life. Anyway,

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My friend Shanine just IM-ed me, saying, our friend Lhang is mad, and totally gagged.

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There was this story that Kathy, was mad at her, which I don’t know why and how this got to her. I don’t care at all.

I’m so Mentally disturbed, my emotions are hurt, and so is my heart.

And she’s freaking mad at us all. So senseless I may say, back stabbing and all the things cannot be helped.

And I’m so FREAKING PISSED OFF ALREADY ON HOW I GET COUNSELED ON TO MAKE US ALL GO TOGETHER AGAIN!

I’M SO FREAKIN’ DARN PISSED WITH ALL OF THIS! WHY CAN’T THEY JUST BE SO UNDERSTANDING?! AND GET THIS ALL OVER WITHOUT ANYONE GETTING MAD AT ALL?!

THE TRUTH ALWAYS DARN HURTS, BUT WHY CAN’T WE HELP BUT FIGHT ALL THE TIME?!

IF YOU FREAKIN GUYS WANTED TO FIGHT, THEN DO SO! DON’T EVER GET INNOCENT, AND QUIET PEOPLE INTO IT.

SOMEONE TOLD US THIS, AND WE’RE FREAKING LISTENING TO THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE DARN DISTURBED AND SAD,

AND NOW YOU FREAKING ACCUSE US OF MAKING YOU LOOK DARN STUPID?!

You’re not the only person feeling that way in this world, don’t ever think that the world will end without you.

A lot of people in this world, are being deceived more than, how your lovely friends had deceived you, you were deceived for a great big reason.

Being plastic is a effing part of life, and no one can’t help but do that, in order not to bring up so much freaking fights at all.

And you can’t even freakin’ understand it?!

Your life might be sad and all, but you’re not freaking the saddest person in this world!! Don’t sick for darn attention, we all have equal amount of it.

I heard you were being treated badly at your house, and I want to help you out and make you out of this. And now, I’m in a mentally unstable condition, this is the FREAKING NEWS I DARN GET?!

The hell with all this!

THE HELL WITH YOU,

THE HELL WITH US!

THE HELL REALLY!

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And with that, I’m still not freaking getting at the peak of my endless rant, and I want top cry.

I’m badly and drastically hurt, and my mind’s so freaking confused. I wanna stab everyone and go die. -.-“

This life freakin… is so filled with bad luck.

In the middle of recovering from my skin sickness, my PC suddenly gets a Trojan virus, I had to reformat on a jiff, unable to save some of my freakin files, and with that, comes the problem and thought of my skin sickness coming back after the treatment had ended.

I thought everything will be good now, since I’ve had very bad luck since the beginning of THIS SUMMER! And now this?!

TO HELL WITH US ALL!

I want this endless bad luck to end… did I just draw a “very bad luck” fortune in a somewhere shrine?

Why do I have bad luck these days? Was it because I’ve been lucky the whole year last year? So I’ll be bad lucked all of 2008’s year?

I had good luck’s too, but all these bad luck is getting to me, and I’m becoming a little depressed, confused and stressed with all this.

Give me a break..

Let me rest…

A very late entry.

Happy One Year Anniversary KARA!!

So yeah, I'm supposed to make an entry on March 29th, but I don't really have the time to figure out my password, and the email I used for here. yeah that's it. T.T I'm making two entries today since, I'll be leaving soon, my friend's birthday is today. so yeah. =)
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To tell you the truth, I might pull out of my internet hobbies, and start working, we're getting poor, and my internet subscriber might cut down my internet, so, I'll miss you guys, I will really... T.T

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HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!
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