May you Rest In Peace, dear Eye Glasses.

Like I said, May you rest in Peace dear Eye Glasses.

Today when I came home, I had a heated argument with my sister because of our router installer. How stupid right? It's my fault. Because I'm lazy.

Something bad from the personality is, my tone of speaking, people misunderstands me a lot, because of my voice's tone in speaking. My Mother got mad at us. And when she was rendering her 'speech' I was the only one who can hear it. Thus I was the only who heard it and got hurt.

As you all know, I wear eyeglasses don't I? I removed it, =) And when she (my Mom) passed by me when she got out of the house, I stood up, and threw my glasses on the cement, and poof! IT multiplied!

I was having migraines as to I think my eyes' grades are increasing, so I don't need glasses anymore, let migraines be migraines, until I have wished for new eyeglasses.

Aside from that, I went inside our house, slammed my head, on a wall, one, two, uhh.. eight times. Then walked to a cabinet.

Gave it a right straight 2 times, a left straight and another right straight, so right now, both my fists have bruises, and are semi-swollen. They both have blood clothes I think. hahah! Fun.

my head hurts, my hand hurts. Sometimes when you feel hurt you just feel like hurting yourself until you feel it hurt right?

Instead of hitting my mom, I hit myself, wow. XDD

I was so frustrated, and is still am. I don't know how to change my attitude, nor my way of speaking, I want to change myself, into something people can accept, in this world, no one has accepted me for being me, and has endured how I am, and for being myself.

I alway have to put up a facade, that shows what people; my parents, wants to see from me.

With this, freedom was forcefully taken from my life. Thus I don't have the 'freedom to express oneself' within me.

I have freedom to do what I want, do everything I want.

But when time comes that I have to express, prove, and say something about myself. Everything becomes darkness. And no one listens anymore.

Minjoo, Labs Avii, Axel-nii, Hanji unni, Anne unni, April nee-san, Rita, Jon-nii, Jonathan, Austin Oppa, Emily, Daddyyy, Joseph/Mi-Chan, Nikki, Daphne, Donna Umma, Diane unni, Jen Unni, Yen Unni, Ate Mae, Yuki, Cher, Jeff, Gabby, Christy, Ichigo and Miszy, Yes I can name and I WILL NAME, all of them, who have helped with my problems, who listens to me, who accepts me for who I am, and loves me the way I am.

My oppas, unnis, dongsaengs, oniichans, oneechans, imoutochans,otuotuchans, everyone listed there, you know who you are. And I thank you for appreciating me. I am living now because of your encouragements.

But sad to say, amongst all of those named, only seven of them I have met in real life, and I'm happy to meet them, and I want to meet them again. And all of them, I want to meet them all! =D

Previously, I was telling I didn't have Family Problems, instead Friend Problems. Looks like they are both now. =)

I'm hoping to see you all soon. I love you my dear friends. =D And my beloved Internet sites, Karabloom, the new kara forum, soompi kara thread, Kzone and Boajjang. I'm glad to meet you guys in these places.

Saying all these made me feel better, though no one can change the fact that my hands, and head hurts till now. XDDD And May you rest in peace dear eye glasses.

~ De arimasu, Shanatan