I got pwned. Nyahaha...

"You want to call yourself an editor and yet, you don't even
edit your own work..."

Yes, Shame on me. I'm really sorry.

I've been working as an Editor for a Fanfiction Group in Fanfiction.net, It has only been a month...? Less than a month, and I've only edited for two stories. And now I'm currently on strike two.

I've been putting this statement on the current story I'm working on. (it's gone now, I took it down)

"This Story is Un beta-ed XD. Sorry for Grammatical Errors and Mistakes."

I do think, it seemed unprofessional. Yes. But what I meant was that I need another person to edit for me, and that I feel like my own editing is not enough to consider this story clean. But since what I've been writing still looked messy, I haven't been doing my job. I would no longer give excuses.

I'm thinking of quitting or not. I will shape up, and keep my position as a beta. But my stories will stay the same. Why? Because a one man army, doesn't make much difference. That's why a different person is in charge of proof reading, and for editing. Because they have different outlooks when a sentence is constructed.

I reasoned out. And the reply I got "I don't care." It hurt. It really does. You're concerned of your own progress. If I disgraced your reputable name, I'll gladly let go, change my name, and you can finally forever remove, that you had such a shameful member in your team. It would hurt, my pride, my right as a person, and everything I had, but if it means, that you get to keep what you've been doing for a long time already. It's okay. Because I'm that kind of person.

I don't care about myself, and my well being. I write what I want, and fix what I think that needed fixing. But if I'm really disgracing your name, just PLEASE TELL ME. I need to know, I'm just a "dumb kid" who happened to pass by and get hired. I don't think it would be bad to kick me out now, or if I quit on my own now, I haven't worked for long anyways.

I applied to be of help. I applied because I saw things I know I can help with. But if you don't need me anymore, you can just tell me "I will have to say, but you need to let go of your position." And I'll gladly do it. I still hope I can be friends with you guys.

However, I don't think I'm quitting anytime soon. Until I get this things cleared and I know I've said what I wanted to say, and hear you say what you want to say. If you hate me, it's fine. I can go away, I won't ponder and wander around somewhere, where I know, someone is not glad I'm there.

English is not my first Language. And I admit I'm not good with English too, I don't have a lot of vocabulary, I suck at grammar, but I'm proud that I can see unnoticeable mistakes, that is common in stories. That's the only thing I can say.

But say, what do you want to tell me? I'm not mad. Do I sound like I am? If I do, then I clear it, I'm not mad, I'm not lying either. In this blog, I say what I want to say, and say what I feel like saying. Everything in here is true.

Rather. I'm sad. Cause I didn't get to be heard out. Replied with an "I don't care" and left me hanging.

That's all.