It's because I fail at life.

It's been a long time since I cried this much. Nyaha~ And I think I'm still crying, but oh well, who on earth would actually care right?

I chose a resolve to not reason out just to save myself, and accept whatever that is headed. Who would've thought it would hurt this much if it actually counts? Like having a fight with a friend, and not reasoning out and that friend ends up getting mad at you.

Well idiotic okay, well that's just the kind of person I am. An idiot. Yes. I don't know what to write anymore, maybe it's because I've cried out and is still crying out the emotions that I wanted to tell someone.

Retaliating my own sadness, is what I've been doing, because no one had always been present for me, and I always had this mind set of 'Do not bother other people with your own problem, because they have their share.' There's also this 'Don't show or tell people you're hurting, you're like someone looking for their pity.'

Its part of how I was raised, idiotic way yeah right, but who cares really? I only end up hurting myself (I hope) so if I'm the only one hurting, then... it should be fine.

Well, that should be all of them, maybe.

see you.

In this song is how I currently feel =)





English Translations Here:
Credits to Zwei@Coalguys.com
English Translation

“Continuation of a Dream”
Lyrics: Mizuki Nana
Composition: Mizuki Nana
Arrangement: Fujita Junpei (Elements Garden)

I’m always apologizing and saying, “I’m sorry.”
But the truth was, I just wanted to talk with you.
So you silently nodded your head as if to say “Do your best,”
And gave my back a push back in those dreamlike days.

I want to thank you
As loudly as I can,
With all the feelings I couldn’t say in my embarrassment.
I want my gratitude to reach you,
The one I love.
No matter where you go,
We’ll be linked together in song.

We crossed paths many times.
In times of sorrow we cried together.
We kept believing as we stepped forward.
I’ll never forget those daring days.

Whenever I see your bright smile,
I think of going forward without hesitation
With a still far-off dream in mind.
You taught me the wonders of happiness.
Please be with me forever,
My most beloved.

I want to thank you
As loudly as I can,
With all the feelings I couldn’t say in my embarrassment.
I want my gratitude to reach you,
The one I love.
No matter where you go,
We’ll be linked together in song.